Well...I'm officially now one year and one week older. I don't know how I feel about that. So many things that I thought I would have by now are just not here. I pretty sure by now that I will never have my own children.
I've seriously considered going to Africa and taking care of orphans. No...I'm serious. My only problem is my psychotic cat: who would take her? What would I do with her? She freaks out if I'm gone for a week. Her blood work that I did during her last annual was perfect. She's too mean not to live forever. She is something to consider.
The reason I think about this: Africa has a lot of orphans living in horrible conditions. It would give some meaning to my life, since apparently, I'm not doing anything here. I know there is plenty to do here, but there are things here that I would need to get far away from in order to concentrate on the task at hand. Things are still way up in the air with the love of my life: we still love each other deeply, but circumstances keep us apart. I will wait for only so long...after that, I have to leave for my own good. I have reason to believe that I will have my answer one way or the other by the end of this year. Meanwhile, I will look into Africa.
Other things are going fairly well. I got a promotion at work--I have visions of change; I only hope that others can see it, too. The Longhorns are, again, in the Regional playoffs--hoping that this year goes better than last (I can't go two years in a row where they are not in the College World Series). I've found the world's best liquor store where my favorite Tequila is $20 less than in any other store (If you are still drinking Cuervo, you have no idea what Tequila is!) The Cubs suck again this year, so, obviously Hell hasn't frozen over yet and the world continues to stay on track. (Damn Cubs!) I finally had a member of the family come to Texas for a vacation, so I've had guests. (Boy...they're kind of exhausting!) I'm healthy...first mammogram was A-OK. (If you've ever just wanted to play with breasts, you should be a mammogram tech.) As long as I keep busy at work, I don't dwell too much on the love-life. Busy doesn't look like a problem, at least for the upcoming month. And, I found out recently that, despite all the times I feel alone, I do have friends. For that, and for them, I am very grateful.
